Sexual Slowdown

Folks I've been having a slowdown (a stop really) in writing on She Touched Me. I'm lucky that anyone has even stopped by here recently. Sadly due to some medical issues the has been a slowdown in my sex drive as well.

When I started this blog it was meant to be a full exploration of sexuality so I must admit that right now my sex life is... just not quite where my lover & I want it to be due to foremention medical stuff. So hopefully things will be better soon. Until then I thank each of you for your eyes reading these words & your loving thoughts!

The Truth about Handcuffs

They're great & I love them. I'm not a master of wild kink and hardcore anything. But I'm prone to a more submissive style at times (but I'm no pillow princess thank you very much!) & thoroughly enjoy when someone can top me well. That being said I still like to top a woman myself upon occasion. Lucky for me my partner & I are a perfect match sexually. She's more dominant but not so much that our sex is always about that. We're big fans of variety in everything including sex.

The funny thing is that we're both pretty experienced yet keep finding things to do to & with each other that are new to us. This is where handcuffs come in. I've always used long silk scarves to link hands or ankles together. In the past handcuffs seemed less appealing because of the cold metal and clinking of the small chain connecting the cuffs.

We were in a local sex shop a few weeks back looking for a 2nd dildo when I spotted some handcuffs on display. Goodness knows what drew me to them but I was spellbound. All I could think was how hot it would be to feel that thick metal against my wrists while my beloved did whatever she wished to me. I beckoned her over to me & showed her the cuffs & asked what she thought. We decided to get a pair with safety locks (safety first!) and experimented with them that evening.

Last night was the first time we really used them through out our sex. It was so fun to be just that bit helpless as she fucked me. I asked what she thought as she uncuffed me & she said she liked them. I liked them too! Next time we're going to make the cuffs just a bit tighter and maybe get just a bit rougher. Tonight though we're just going to have what we call "slow mo" sex & enjoy the softness of each other. One just has to have room in their sex life for such preciousness.

Wait?!?!

She asked me this morning to wait. To not touch myself, to not get off without her. And she made it very hard because she is so damn yummy & we we kissing in that slow breathy way that makes you feel connected and therefore even more turned on. It's torture of the best kind! Yet I want to masturbate & think of her while doing it.

Last night we fucked hard towards the end. We moved into each other so deeply that we came together for a long time. Our hips swayed together while our hands moved over each others bodies. She asked me if she felt good and I said yes over and over. Then I spanked & grabbed her ass hard and watched her thrust into me . Before I knew it she hit that special spot inside me that brings me into a type of animalistic submission where all I can do is close my eyes & feel. And the room got hotter and our breath became quicker. Since my roommate was gone we were able to groan, pant & sigh into each other as we had cascading orgasms together.

And now I want her again despite my slight vaginal soreness. I want to lick her & grab her hair and feel her juices deep inside me. And I want to go lay down and imagine this as I fuck myself and damn I realize how wonderful it is to feel so comfortable with someone. How lucky I am to finally meet someone who matches me sexually in every way. We both enjoy sex. We both have done many things yet find exquisite new things to do with each other. And the best part is were just getting started. We both want a sex life that is hot and more important, spiritual. We wish to show & express love through many ways including a vibrant sex life. It may seem strange to be grateful to the Universe for our sex but I am so very grateful. At last I have met my match.

Girl Soup

Last night my lover & I made girl soup. We are both very wet women and turn each other on immensely. Our bodies moved closer and closer together until our centers were against each other. I could feel her clit on mine & vice versa. It's my favorite sensation and with her it was that much more lovely. After a while of sliding together our crotches were making these funny squishy sounds and it was hard not to laugh, so we did. We smiled, giggled and pressed into each other even more deeply. After we completed this act we parted to lay next to each other & we noticed we had made this beautiful wet mess between us. My cunt felt so good I wanted her again and again.

It's hard to explain or find the words to really describe our chemistry. We just fit so amazingly well together. I'm going to try to do a better job in the future but right now I'm speechless because so much of our sex has taken on a spiritual aspect in addition to smokin' hot fuckin'. I could just eat her pussy for the rest of my life & find enough ways to to it to stay entertained & content sexually. Yet we both love variety & like to do so many things to & with each other. Take that & combine it with feelings of love and you get some amazing orgasms!

Into Me You See

That was one friends definition of intimacy. That into me you see. We have these moments when we look into each others eyes and we see. We see each other's everything. Hope, fear, curiosity. It can take a lot to open to another like that which is why we both get shy smiles after a while yet can't quite look away.

She is so many things. Shy, bold, lovely, crude, intrepid, silly, soulful, happy, a loner, a party girl, weird, smart, honest and so very very caring. And all that is there sexually for us. Our mutual wildness and softness combines with laughing and delicious heat to make our sex life satisfying to say the least.

We have the best chemistry I've ever had with someone. Sexually and emotionally. It's overwhelming to feel into. As I write this I listen to Eddie Money's song Baby Hold On and feel the chorus inside me for her.

Baby hold on to me
Whatever will be,will be
The future is ours to see
So baby hold on to me

The song is about money not buying love and hanging on to love and that's so us. So many times someones money was a factor in my romances. And this woman and I are poor. All we've got is our history, future and guidance from something bigger than us that tells us to love each other.

Yes the sex is beautiful and hot. But there is already an intimacy that came with us to the bedroom and I wish I could describe fully what such an experience is like. I know that there are these moments where she looks at me with her eyes large and unknowing of anything but our given moment and I hold her gaze trying to keep my heart open to the feelings swirling around her & I.

This adventure is so exciting with her. Yes fear creeps in at times. And I pray. What else can I do but pray and love her and show her with my heart, body and eyes how I feel.

Sparkle Motion

She came upstairs & told me there was a surprise for me in my locker. Being that I told her a few days prior where I keep my spare key hidden I wasn't shocked in anyway by her opening up that space. I waited for a while because I didn't want to look too excited. When I opened my locker I found the damn cutest dildo I've ever seen. Brand new, still in its package it was a darkened but clear toy with sparkles through and through. The model was one I'm quite familiar with and told my lover weeks prior the name of the dildo that fits me best. And there it was in my locker, shiny and ready for fun.

With our new playmate was a beautiful laminated note itself covered with sparkles. The note was "from" this new toy introducing herself. The note explained that she heard I had fantasies and was a perfect fit for my body and imagination. The note even mentioned how much we had in common, because like me, she's sparkly and fun! Finally was the sign off with the name of -Sparkle Motion. If you remember that was also the name of the pre-teen dance group in the film Donnie Darko. A movie I and my ladyfriend love.

We got to try out Sparkle Motion after having to wait a couple days as we both were on our moons. But at last we took our time and got to know this new element in our sex life together. Never ever have I had a lover so adept with a sex toy. My ladyfriend used Sparkle Motion in such a way that no added harnesses was needed yet we both got off completely and got to be quite intimate while having a great deal of fun. We had such a good time we had to fuck again the next night with our new toy. Sparkle Motion is without a doubt awesome!

In then Out

Can't keep from masturbating lately. This woman I'm dating makes my vulva pull up every time I think of her in a sexual way. It's never really been like this before. Being so sexually turned on by someone that I can masturbate twice a day and still orgasm with someone (her) in that same day. This adventure has deepened and further opened my sexual relationship with my own self.

For better or worse, sex with another tends to make me want to fall in love with that person. Even if the sex isn't that great I still start to desire the person in a very monogamous kind of way. When this happens my sexual relationship to myself becomes mostly perfunctory. Now that I'm aware of this pattern I'm consciously working to change it. Of course I can't lie, my current lover inspires such sexuality in me that it's easy to access sensual feelings at any given moment.

Instead of letting my mind wander to wanting to fall in love with her, I'm deepening my relationship with me. To be deeply in love, no matter what is the goal. It's more than the common self help knowledge that you can't love someone unless you love yourself. This idea is meaningful, true and elementary for me. The point with my love and sex life is and has to be based upon spirituality. I know when sex with another is based on sense and energy instead of the technical aspects I enjoy myself a million times more. My orgasms dance and my body feels wonderfully squeezed by God/dess. Bringing this feeling from 2 person sex to solo sex is a challenge, but I'm so grateful to have the inspiration to begin an even deeper very hot, spiritual and beautiful sexual/romantic relationship with myself.